Bah, humbug

Hello everyone..... I just cannot seem to get into the mood of Christmas.  This is the worst I have ever been.  I do not feel like decorating and I doubt if  I will put up a tree this year.  Hopefully I can get my lights outside this weekend.  I always have the Christmas dinner.  But thank goodness my sister-in-law said she would do it.  And thank goodness for that.  It takes an enormous weight off my shoulders.

Well, the news is in and I do need radiation.  Friday, December 16 for CAT scan to pinpoint exactly where they want to shoot the radiation I must go for five weeks five times a week for 25 visits and the results of the pathology test showed it was staged two cancer not stage one as earlier thought.  Tuesday I went to see my regular doctor .  He gave me of flu shot and a pneumonia shot Wednesday I had to go for a pet scan .  They shot something in my veins, which I do not know what it was but by Friday I had an allergic reaction to something I do not know if it was the combination of the three things or the dye, I cannot really pinpoint  what caused the rash and of course from the results of the pet scan they found a  lump in my thyroid, which must be removed so I need another surgery .  Oh joy!  Just what I was looking forward too, hopefully I can wait till after my radiation.  For that I go to see that Dr. December 19th,  I did not start the radiation as of yet, but hopefully will get it started soon .  I am trying to keep a positive attitude about everything .  Knowing there are people that are much worse off than  I am ,and praying for them daily .it is so funny how things can change from one year to the next .  Last year I had holiday fever early, this year I just cannot get in the mood .....